I SAW THE LIGHT. I WAS THE LIGHT.

• You’ve got a bloom.
• Do you say?
• Yes, I say. You used to be in an  off  mood.
• Off?
• That’s right, you were off.
• Yes I was turned off. By life, by habit, by responsibility, by relationships.
• Relationships?
• Yes I don’t know how to connect with people, I’ve got a problem with this.
• And now what’s changed?
• Nothing.
• Nothing? You have just flipped the on switch?
• Yeah, I just flip the on switch.
• Come on, don’t play with me.
• Yes, I flip the on switch and saw relationships of convenience, false interest, envy, resentment, moments expected so expected that never came. And I breathed.
• Breathed.
• Yes, I breathed and everything became clear. I can’t chase the shadows because shadows will never chase me.
• The shadows?
• Have you understood. It’s useless chasing uninterested people. Relationships can’t be unilateral. When they are unilateral they turn you off.
• But what’s all this concern with the fact that you don’t know how to connect with people?
• Because it’s also my fault.
• Your fault?
• Yes my fault, I can’t manage relationships. When things go wrong the blame is never one-sided right?
• Right.
• I mean, I knew, deep down, they didn’t care about me. But I never had the balls to face them. I wept on them hoping that sooner or later… I mean I was the kind of person I’ve always hated: the victim.
• And then, how did you turn on?
• I told you, I breathed. I stopped thinking and I realized that I am my lighthouse. I am my light at the end of the tunnel.
• You are.
• I am, but I’ve only  just realize it.
• And now what will you do?
• I will try to enlighten my life.

Dedicated to all of you, I hope you might find your light and illuminate the world.

Merry Christmas

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